Sunday, February 07, 2010

who dat ?


dat me doin fais-do-do in mama's kitchen

50% french, and 50% alaskan pioneer finnish, i am entertaining my 1oo% (cajun) french mama, nellie grace, by making Making Adult Bibs today

mama watched me cut them all out yesterday

i put a shiny purple ribbon around her neck
her 'lagniappe' (lawn yop) ..... little something extra ;)

'now, you're monkeying with me she said!'

she still loves being included and having fun....
and fun, we do have!

and it will be my own competition with being handicapped
or handi-able.....until my broken wrist heals

3 hours to just flip the material flat and cut 3 sets

who knows if i can sew?

don matta!

we're having a 'sew-do-do' in the kitchen today

Laissez les bon temps rouler ....

(let the good times roll)

who dat?
short for.....
Who dat say dey gonna beat dem Saints"

challenges
broken wrist
laughter therapy
alien encounters
Stitches in Memory and Time

Thursday, February 04, 2010

coming and going.......


I just came and went from Alaska in 6 days time
to Alaska from Oregon January 5th

then back to Oregon
and then back to Alaska again
now, this week

celebrated my mil's 94th in Oregon
was important to do
and necessary in all ways

however, the night i left Juneau
chaos began

my brother's son up there broke his leg in hockey game
tibia and fibula huge jagged break

same brother who spent 3 weeks helping me
with my broken wrist
and resulting surgery in Juneau
now having to continue with his son

very next morning my dad was clawing at bedroom drapes
to get window open gasping for air
rushed to e.r. in Juneau from our Douglas Island home

he stayed 2 days in hospital
inconclusive test results
but very very sick, dizzy. nauseated, weak

sat night my same brother found him incoherent in bed 3 am
upside down twisted in blankets
gasping for breath
he asked for hospital

rushed him back to hospital
probable 1 to 2 heart attacks had previously happened
silent ons with no pain expressed
not even caught in previous 2 days of tests
in hospital just 2 days before

i got back on first plane out from Oregon
next day Mon am
back to Juneau
they told him i was coming

by time i got here and
went to him he rallied
huge turn around
they admitted he has incredible will to live
at his 93 years

stress and anxiety and caring for my Alzheimer's mom last 5 yrs
plus his acute shingles i came up to help with in 2008
exaggerated the mild sleep apnea he'd had for decades

oxygen deprivation as he slept and napped
combined to create stress on heart
undiagnosed cardiac irregularities and unrecognized heart attack(s)

my 'good 'unbroken and too overused wrist went out on me
two wrist splints now

talk about 'out of my hands' and thy will be done
one simply tries to flow through faith into a place of acceptance
and still stay cheerful and hopeful

my nephew had surgery on his broken tibia and fibula 4 days ago
visited him at home
and welcomed him to the alien encounters
'parts department'

he almost smiled thru huge pain
bless his heart

first cast created horrific pressure sores
my bro had to rush him into er again
total agony

removed cast,treated sores
new fiberglass cast that is looser

my sil's and brothers all rose to challenges
all being amazing tho exhausted
someone at home with mom

we all took multiple turns at hospital with dad
every second 24 hrs a day
and helping with mom's constant care

we are cautiously encouraged about dad
they sent him home wed
taking it all day by day

medicare just ended Juneau coordinator
no sleep apnea c-pap unit here
sleep study showed dad woke
gasped for air 45x that night

we have to order and ship big unit to Juneau
and learn how to set up,clean, and maintain by ourselves
with directions over the phone from Anchorage office

my over used 'good' wrist now injured
so one broken
one carpal tunnel
1 surgery but 2 matching splints
in just 3 weeks

challenging time
me with wrist here
then back to mil in Oregon
then my nephew to er here
then my dad
all in 3 weeks

its unbelievable yet
how life flows and goes sometimes

tomorrow, on Friday, the 2nd graders and
our kuspuks will be filmed
by Anchorage news crew on native culture segment

good times in spite of hard
we are all so grateful dad is still with us and mom is good

we still practice laughter therapy
every single day
even in ICU
not sure others understood ;)
but so important to keep energy and spirits up

still so blessed in all ways
and we never forget that

it is the secret to all challenges
it really is

one more day at a time
we all can do this

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Stitches in Memory and Time


I came to Alaska to care for my 93 year old father and 84 year old mother. My father has been under unbearable stress caring for my mother. My mother is blind, diabetic and suffering from Alzheimer's.

She is also an absolute sweetheart, and it saddened me to learn that she'd progressed to being bedridden and almost comatose by Christmas. I'd brought her up to better health before, and knew I needed to do that again. My dad needed a caregiver's break, some constant cheerful company, and to celebrate his birthday surrounded by his loving and appreciative family.

I also came up to work with my award-winning S-I-L, Paula Savikko, and her second grade class at Gastineau Elementary School in Douglas, Alaska and the making of calico cotton parkas known as kuspuks. (alt. spellings quaspeg, qaspeg, quspug) A kuspuk is a traditional native Alaskan garment, usually made of cotton fabric that is worn over a fur parka in the winter, and as an outdoor garment in the summer...over pants, leggings or jeans.

This would be my third year of involvement with this wonderful project, and while intense (we teach 7 year olds to sew with assistance on our sewing machines) and let them make their own garment every step of the way. They do surprisingly well and absolutely love doing it.

We also worked with the extra-ordinary gifts of Yup'ik Cultural Instructor, Theresa John, as she shared her knowledge of the Yup'ik Eskimos of Nelson Island and their traditions from the Tooksok Bay area of western Alaska as she and Paula Savikko showed students and their parent helpers, to rip out our parkas without the use of patterns, and only using the concepts of non-standard math...the width of one's body,or so many hands across.

Theresa taught the class many words in Yup'ik and described how different the original culture was from ours today. She did an amazing job of working with the children and teaching them Yup'ik terminology, history and geography. With word, song and dance, she created a magical learning experience for all of us, and one that I felt truly blessed to experience.

I never intended that I would slip in my father's driveway on black ice. That I would pulverize my wrist's lunate bone, fracture my arm's large radius bone in four places, and dislocate three normally rotatable wrist bones. They and I, almost ended up sideways that day, and we needed a surgical jackhammer, a titanium plate, and ten screws to put us back together, again.

But like love and care, like needles and thread, this amazing creation I now carry within my arm for life, holds layers together, and now it bonds them with purpose and meaning. It should allow me to someday use my arm, engage my wrist, and move my fingers once again, in the acts of creation.

Until then, I still have purpose, I still take care, and I still do, make do, and create. Even with one hand, I cook and serve simple meals. I test insulin levels and give injections. I collect, wash, dry, and even fold, laundry every day. I sweep and mop the floors, I dress and undress myself and assist my mother with her needs. But mostly, I hug, and love, sing with, and talk to, those I love so dearly, making sure they know that they have a place, a purpose, in my own life.

I can type with one finger, I can write, take photographs, and I can still blog. Everything is painful, and everything is harder, but I can still do, and make do. But best of all, I can give and I can love. In three weeks, my mother has been pulled and lifted with heart and hands, using the fulcrum point of my body, my unique energy gifts, the power of this beautiful land I love so much, and one hand. She has gone from not sitting, barely talking, and having to be spoon fed to
talking, limited walking, feeding herself, and not only understanding us, but laughing along with us.

So, when I look back on the last 3 weeks, I am grateful. I truly know that each and every day is precious. I know there are blessings and gifts beyond pain and sadness and loss. I don't know what challenges tomorrow might bring, or how many new challenges or setbacks might get added to an already overwhelming load.

So, just for today, I look back on my stitches in memory and time...and I still feel blessed to have had them. Those I can see in my forearm,those I can see in the kuspuks we have sewn, and those in my parents' hearts that we all can feel simply by looking at the sparkle in their eyes and the joy in their smiles.

Links to Making Kuspuks in 2009:
Kuspuks and Friday Finishes
Fun But Frenzied Frugality: Sewing Kuspuks Again!
Kuspuks
Links to Making Kuspuks in 2008:
How to make a kuspuk
Kuspuks Make Front Page News
Juneau Empire Photos: Parka party 01/18/08 video

Thursday, January 21, 2010

alien encounters



as i came out of surgery, i joked that the operating room looked like the inside of an alien spaceship.

little did i know, that my new bionic parts of titanium plate and screws,
would look exactly like an implanted, alien hand.

i mean, i am a firm believer in gratitude and acceptance,
of working hard and seeing a purpose to even the hardest of challenges,
but really....

until i start receiving my encoded transmissions from the master colony,
i'm wondering....

can this thing even quilt?

links:
challenges
broken wrist
laughter therapy
alien encounters
Stitches in Memory and Time

Monday, January 18, 2010

quilts for haiti


on a a recent cnn report, former president george bush said

"please don't send food,don't send water or blankets (quilts...to haiti)"

referring to the enormous congestion at port au prince's damaged airport and docking facilities

where addional goods can actually interfere with red cross, united nations, or other major relief efforts.

pesident bush goes on to say
"send money."

but for those of us with quilts, blankets, homemade toys, clothing, jewelry, and other crafted goods that we want to give from our own caring hearts and hands....

we can now donate,sell, or buy these crafted items

and all proceeds go to haitian relief efforts directly to doctors without borders.

craft hope » craft hope for haiti blog

check out this website and donate OR buy a little something,today.

craft hope haiti

Martin Luther King Day of Service

and to donate cash:
text “HAITI” to 90999 to donate $10 to American Red Cross

shown:
a little liberated teddy quilt, made from the tiniest of leftover scraps from Howdy, Pardner! and Heart Felt Wishes for Comfort and Care

Saturday, January 16, 2010

laughter therapy


surgery was wednesday
went in and entire power grid of juneau blew out
generators were mighty and surgeon was skilled

used medical jackhammer
got all bones pushed/pulled into place
pulverized one..shaped like the moon not essential
titanium plate
10 screws
3 lge purple
7 small green

i could design a quilt
name it ' i been screwed'
ha

came out surgery
power came on in juneau
and i used to only blow out light bulbs :)

quilt mom anna sent me these
i laughed til i cried
fabulous laughter therapy!
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Church
Bulletins...They're Back! These sentences (with all the BLOOPERS)
actually appeared in church bulletins or were announced in church services;
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The Fasting & Prayer Conference includes meals.

The sermon this morning: 'Jesus Walks on the Water.' The sermon tonight: 'Searching for Jesus.'
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Ladies, don't forget the rummage sale. It's a chance to get rid of those things not worth keeping around the house. Bring your husbands.
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Remember in prayer the many who are sick of our community. Smile at someone who is hard to love. Say 'Hell' to someone who doesn't care much about you.
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Don't let worry kill you off - let the Church help.
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Miss Charlene Mason sang 'I will not pass this way again,' giving obvious pleasure to the congregation.
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For those of you who have children and don't know it, we have a nursery downstairs.
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Next Thursday there will be tryouts for the choir. They need all the help they can get.
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Irving Benson and Jessie Carter were married on October 24 in the church. So ends a friendship that began in their school days.
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A bean supper will be held on Tuesday evening in the church hall. Music will follow.
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At the evening service tonight, the sermon topic will be 'What Is Hell?'
Come early and listen to our choir practice.
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Eight new choir robes are currently needed due to the addition of several new members and to the deterioration of some older ones.
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Scouts are saving aluminum cans, bottles and other items to be recycled. Proceeds will be used to cripple children.
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Please place your donation in the envelope along with the deceased person you want remembered.
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The church will host an evening of fine dining, super entertainment and gracious hostility.
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Potluck supper Sunday at 5:00 PM - prayer and medication to follow.
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The ladies of the Church have cast off clothing of every kind. They may be seen in the basement on Friday afternoon.
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This evening at 7 PM there will be a hymn singing in the park across from the Church. Bring a blanket and come prepared to sin.
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Ladies Bible Study will be held Thursday morning at 10 AM. All ladies are invited to lunch in the Fellowship Hall after the B.S. is done.
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The pastor would appreciate it if the ladies of the Congregation would lend him their electric girdles for the pancake breakfast next Sunday.
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Low Self Esteem Support Group will meet Thursday at 7 PM. Please use the back door.
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The eighth-graders will be presenting Shakespeare's Hamlet in the Church basement Friday at 7 PM. The congregation is invited to attend this tragedy.
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Weight Watchers will meet at 7 PM at the First Presbyterian Church. Please use large double door at the side entrance.
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The Associate Minister unveiled the church's new campaign slogan last Sunday: 'I Upped My Pledge - Up Yours.'
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on a more serious side we have been watching haiti on news non-stop here.
even with one hand i could easily text

“HAITI” to 90999 to donate $10 to American Red Cross

please join in and help this beautiful nation of impoverished people by doing the same
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challenges
broken wrist
laughter therapy
alien encounters
Stitches in Memory and Time

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

broken wrist



distal radius fracture
multiple bones involved
major dislocation

this is after swelling went down 4 days later
we thought it looked great
apparently not

saw surgeon yesterday
bad, serious break
surgery essential

displacement of almost 3/4 to 1" of all vertical joint bones in left wrist
everything shoved up into my forearm, tipped at diagonals
not flat and inches from right spots

this shortened my arm, fractured 3 or 4 bones
all crazy displaced at weird angles from force
of my fall on black ice last thursday

new technique discovered 3 yrs ago should work good
titanium plate screwed into bones

my lovely bones will create a new portal
for manifestation of new energies of creation

i will sew garments of great joy
and coverings of good will once more

i will be bionic but still won't be able
to be a magnetic pin catcher

oh well
i shouldn't make airlines alarms go off at least



details in time and space:
1230 alaska time
think happy thoughts of healing
grateful blessings its left and not right wrist

links:
challenges
broken wrist
laughter therapy
alien encounters
Stitches in Memory and Time

Friday, January 08, 2010

challenges


yesterday i sewed kuspuks with 2nd graders again. oh how i love little ones and seeing excitement of using sewing machine. we got the body section's necks cut open,sleeves to body,cuffs to sleeves,and side seams and sleeves. the children help every step of the way.

only four 7 year olds out of 16 got to sew so far.others can't wait. oh they are so cute.. they measure, pin, guide fabric, unpin as we go.t hey love lifting feed dogs up and down. i make it silly and fun for me as well as them. another 7 year old took photo.

think i can sew with one arm?

i slipped on black ice, broke my left wrist, radius bone of arm,in many many places.
dr said it was a very bad break. see a specialist about surgery next tues..typing this with a finger.

i am so sad i won't be much help to my parents now. it takes me and my dad working together to lift, turn mom over or around, feed, change and dress her. and dad turns 93 0n 15th.

guess i will be slowing down a bit. but it hasn't happened yet.

inspite of immense pain and some serious swelling, and a broken arm in an initial splint, life and other;s needs go on. tonight 11hrs after the break and in an impressive amount of pain, i was still able to climb into the tub and push on my mom's back to keep her upright while my sister in law bathed and shampooed her hair

i said i wished i had a photo,3 of us sopping wet,me with a freshly broken arm.

you just do what you have to do and you do the best you can with challenges of any kind.

but dang sometimes it does get hard.

send good thoughts,i'd sure appreciate them.

challenges
broken wrist
laughter therapy
alien encounters
Stitches in Memory and Time

Wednesday, January 06, 2010

Gwen Marston Quilt Art Tiles



Gwen Marston is known for being an extremely talented, world re known quilter and grand dame of the Liberated Quilting movement. But did you know, she's never *sold a quilt? Or did you know that you can buy art tiles that replicate her unique quilting designs and allow you to own a piece of Gwen's quilting art in your own home or office?

The 'Quilt Designs on Tile" are available only from the Loudeac Tile Studio in New York. An exclusive line of ceramic art tiles. As Loudeac says: << >>



We are excited to be able to offer you these original designs on ceramic tile. To make the tiles, ultra-high resolution images of the quilts were used , some whole quilts, some single blocks. This means a completely unique kind of arttile that has strong graphic design qualities but also conveys the fabric medium. On many of our tiles, the
texture of the quilt work is visible.

The range of the designs--from bold and jazzy to earthtoned and traditional--will suit many tastes and decors. And, like all our tiles, these tiles are both decorative and functional. Beautiful displayed on an easel or adorning a wall, but also suitable for kitchen backsplashes and most other indoor tile installations.
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I was so excited when I discovered these, that I knew I just had to share them, no matter how hard it was to work on them using two different airport Internet services. I am in Alaska now, using my laptop on dial up to try to correct the graphics errors some of you might have already seen. Hopefully, Gwen's beautiful carefully selected tiles are all here to be admired and possibly even purchased.

*When Gwen says 'she's never sold a quilt" she's being incredibly modest. She not only gives them away, but donates them generously to auctions. When we were in Sisters last summer, Cher of Marathon Quilter, bid on and won a beautiful little art quilt...postcard sized. The other one she also bid on, someone else got. And it looked very much like my first art tile shown. Cher's is softer toned and can be found at her blog in a previous Sisters Quilt Show post.

I know I would LOVE to own one of these!!!!
Gwen Marston Quilt Designs on Tile by Loudeac Studio

with heart and hands,
hard at work in Alaska,
Michele

Loudeac Tile Studio and Gwen's Ceramic Art Tiles

Monday, January 04, 2010

The Sack Lunches


As I prepare to leave for Alaska, I am thinking of once again being up in the air and hearing all the stories that my seat companions always seem to share with me. And I remember this one, from the news...because I, too, want to spend the rest of my life handing out...

"The Sack Lunches"

I put my carry-on in the luggage compartment and sat down in my assigned seat. It was going to be a long flight. 'I'm glad I have a good book to read, Perhaps I will get a short nap,' I thought.

Just before take-off, a line of soldiers came down the aisle and filled all the vacant seats, totally surrounding me, I decided to start a conversation. 'Where are you headed?' I asked the soldier seated nearest to me.'

Petawawa. We'll be there for two weeks for special training, and then we're being deployed to Afghanistan.

After flying for about an hour, an announcement was made that sack lunches were available for five dollars. It would be several hours before we reached the east, and I quickly decided a lunch would help pass the time.

As I reached for my wallet, I overheard soldier ask his buddy if he planned to buy lunch. 'No, that seems like a lot of money for just a sack lunch. Probably wouldn't be worth five bucks. I'll wait till we get to base '

His friend agreed.

I looked around at the other soldiers. None were buying lunch. I walked to the back of the plane and handed the flight attendant a fifty dollar bill. 'Take a lunch to all those soldiers.' She grabbed my arms and squeezed tightly. Her eyes wet with tears, she thanked me. 'My son was a soldier in Iraq ; it's almost like you are doing it for him.'

Picking up ten sacks, she headed up the aisle to where the soldiers were seated. She stopped at my seat and asked, 'Which do you like best - beef or chicken?

''Chicken,' I replied, wondering why she asked. She turned and went to the front of plane, returning a minute later with a dinner plate from first class. This is your thanks.'

After we finished eating, I went again to the back of the plane, heading for the rest room. A man stopped me. 'I saw what you did. I want to be part of it. Here, take this...' He handed me twenty-five dollars.

Soon after I returned to my seat, I saw the Flight Captain coming down the aisle, looking at the aisle numbers as he walked, I hoped he was not looking for me, but noticed he was looking at the numbers only on my side of the plane. When he got to my row he stopped, smiled, held out his hand, and said, 'I want to shake your hand.'

Quickly unfastening my seat belt I stood and took the Captain's hand. With a booming voice he said, 'I was a soldier and I was a military pilot. Once, someone bought me a lunch. It was an act of kindness I never forgot.' I was embarrassed when applause was heard from all of the passengers.

Later I walked to the front of the plane so I could stretch my legs. A man who was seated about six rows in front of me reached out his hand, wanting to shake mine. He left another twenty-five dollars in my palm.

When we landed I gathered my belongings and started to deplane. Waiting just inside the airplane door was a man who stopped me, put something in my shirt pocket, turned, and walked away without saying a word.

Another twenty-five dollars!

Upon entering the terminal, I saw the soldiers gathering for their trip to the base. I walked over to them and handed them seventy-five dollars. '

It will take you some time to reach the base. It will be about time for a sandwich. God Bless You.'

Ten young men left that flight feeling the love and respect of their fellow travelers. As I walked briskly to my car, I whispered a prayer for their safe return. These soldiers were giving their all for our country. I could only give them a couple of meals.